Truth is killing me

Yes2. I'm not going. and i'm trying to be strong. but somehow, i just can't forget this phrase

"Seri, takpe eh, awak kasi peluang pada orang lain?"

boleh. kalau begitulah keadilan diletakkan saya terima dengan hati yang terbuka. namun, saya tetap manusia biasa. Perasaan terkilan selepas 6 yang diharungi, pasti akan wujud. Mustahil kalau tidak menangis. I'm still trying to be strong. Life is hard sometimes like what i've said at the post before. To both of you, i will give my all for you guys to make it. I just need some times. I'm not that strong. Mom and dad came here tadi, and now they have realised that their "kegemilangan yang diharapkan" are not that strong. yes. i can cry out loud and tell the whole world abt it but i can't change the fate,the decision. and i am very please to hear this from my dad.

"You are still our daughter no matter what and we are still proud of you. we will be prouder if you can show us that you're strong"

selepas 6, selepas dua kali di posisi tersebut, akhirnya aku tumpas dengan diri sendiri. Ya Allah, pasti ada hikmah atas segalanya. Berkatilah hidupku. Sekarang aku faham apa maksud cikgu menceritakan tentang anak bongsunya sebanyak dua kali kepadaku.

"Ibu, Allah bagi ujian itu sebab Dia sayang kita kan?"

Malu pada diri sendiri apabila kanak2 berumur 8 tahun mampu menerima segala takdir dengan senyuman.


alhamdulillah~

i want someone to hear me.

Life is fun. Life is tough. Life is colorful. Life
is cruel. Life is meanless. Life is fool.

Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore.

Nothing is right, nothing is right when your gone.

I'm losing my breath, I'm losing my right to be wrong

I'm frightened to death, I'm frightened that I won't be strong,

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need me

Is that so bad?

I wanna break all the madness

But it's all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I'm shaking it off, I'm shaking off all of the pain.

You're breaking my heart, breaking my heart once again

yes2. life can't never be perfect. but, that is the whole point of life anyways. to make us realise that we have to struggle really hard to achieve what we wanted. maybe this is kinda lame but yes, life is like a wheel. sometimes, we're going to be on the top sometimes we're going to be at the bottom of life.

what am i going to share is, my life was really tough right now. i'm losing control cause i don't have someone to catch me if i fall. i just wanna be strong. but i'm not. at certain things i can pretend that evertthing will be alright. but, when it comes to family, it is really hard to say. after getting the 3rd place for cheerleading, we've lost at semi final and getting the worst result ever(which i wish it is just a dream). and now, i don't think that i'm going to uia and my parents just busy esp abah with his works. or should i say he is really concern in getting all his jobs done. and my mom is trying to support him a lot. i am left alone. sometimes, i think that i have to be strong just like aliah, she can let her father to move to Qatar this year. i've cried when i hear the whole story. but, yes i am not strong like what you guys think.i suck. all i want right now is someone to hear me and support.

p/s:135/160 is a nightmare!

Stupid

maybe the title is a lil bit harsh. but i don't care.

zon tengah debat-kalah at semi final with smap kajang
cheerleading-number 3
examination results-really terok!


that is why i'm saying my life is stupid. there's no other word that's better than stupid kankan?

seri amalina

you are now fifteen!

R.E.S.P.E.C.T

I NEED THAT WOMAN!

so, anyone who think tht she is the one, please take a note .

ok?

maybe we're at the same age, but please,

don't be such a fucking annoying person who used to be so-called CUTE

i am annoyed.

and i hate it.

fyi, nt just me.

clear enough i guess

sspian,

sorry, we didn't make it to kelantan.
:((

packed!

06.03.10

cheerleading

09-11.03.10

examination

11-15.03.10

zon tengah

13-14.03.10

cik achid's wedding

whoah. gilaa pnat ohh. luckily cheer dh habis n exam tggl esk ja. and akan bertolak ke integomb esk gak. dhla kurang practise since kak aina kena gi kem kp kt stf since 06-10.03.10. tht day ada friendly ngn um and integomb. gila horror ohh.
ini grouping ssp,

integomb
semashur
seseri
mtd
smss
ssp

hope that i can do the best! yeahh!

Just Stand Up

"life is not as easy as you expected.

but, life is also not that hard.
when something just don't seems to be right,
giving up is not the best choice.
when you think that you are the unluckiest person in the world,
take it back and think properly.
what about people at Uganda, children at Africa,
They are more unfortunate than us.
So, just grab any chance that you have
and think wise and twice.
You don't wanna regret anything."

The heart is stronger
Than you think
It's like it can go
Through anything
And even when you think
It can't it finds a way
To still push on
Though

Sometimes
You want to run away
Ain't got the patience
For the pain
And if you
Don't believe it
Look into
Your heart
The beat goes on


I'm tellin' you
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall
Dust it off
Don't let up


Don't you know
You can go
Be your own miracle


You need to know
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Who are we to be
Questioning &
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up


It's like
We all have better days
Problems getting all up
In your face
Just because
You go through it
Don't mean it got
To take control, no

You ain't gotta find
No hiding place
Because the heart
Can beat the hate
Don't wanna
Let your mind
Keep playin' you
And sayin' you
Can't go on

I'm tellin' you that
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall
Dust if off
Don't let up

Don't you know you
You can go
Be your own
Miracle

You need to know
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up

You don't gotta be
A prisoner
In your mind
If you fall
Dust it off
You can live your life
Yeah

Let your heart
Be your guide
Yeah, yeah, yeah

And you will know
That you're good
If you trust in the good
Everything
Will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark
If you follow your heart

And it will get better
Through whatever

If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up


You got it in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Ffind it within
Find it within you
Find it within
Through it all
Just stand up!