What can be worse?

The worst thing about giving up

is to pretend that you have made

the right decision.

By leaving what you defined

as 'toxic'.

But I mean well

Some people assume that just because

they mean well, they can never hurt anyone.

That is selfish. 

If you really care, what they feel is more important

than what you think.

But truth is, you don't care about them but only yourself.

You don't wanna their feelings in your conscience,

So, you say "but, I mean well"

lol, fuck off

Anyone there?

I know I'm not alone.

I know there are those who care.

They'd want to be there when I'm in pain.

They'd want to catch me when I fall.

They'd listen to me if I open up.

But, is it my fault that I just feel really lonely now?

Addiction

It's scary how addictive can giving up be,

Once you gave up on something,

You'll keep on doing it.

You keep on telling yourself to stop.

Don't go further.

It's hurting you.

So you should stop.

It's not going to work.

Just stop.

At first, it takes courage.

But now, it's taking you away.

You're addicted to it.

Stop

Fake it till you make it.

I was never honest with my feelings.

I was never taught to be.

They told me, I shouldn't cry.

Cry is for the weak and I should be strong.

They told me not to smile that much,

they'll think you're nice and

they'll take advantage of you.

They told me to never embrace my emotions

and decide everything using my head, rationally.

But now they say I'm heartless, cold and expressionless.

Who's fault is that?

Why is it mine?

Make what, really?