Only God knows

How can I ever

trust anyone again?

Moga tabah ku hadapi 

tikaman dari belakang.

Lidah setajam pisau.

 

Can you wait to be a mom?

I can't.

I won't talk about the process.

Wtv.

But yeah I really can't wait to be a mom.

Why?

Because I can't wait to be someone's everything.

Surely for everyone.

Mom is everything for us.

I know sometimes, we'll have 

that kind of love-hate relationship.

But she will always be our everything.

Through ups and downs.

Through the good and bad times.

Even we already have a family.

Your mom will always be your everything.

Right?

That's why.

I can't wait.

To love and to be loved

as a mom.

And mom,

you will always be

my everything.

 

xx

SERIAMALINA

Ara

Hey you.

Yes you.

I know you read my blog.

And you're reading my blog.

No need to tell.

I won't call you stalker anyway.

Allow me

Introducing the best band
in the whole world,

McFly

*pfft, of course*

Why are you guys so amazing?

I wanna cry.

11 years together.

That's a long journey. 

Like whoa.

And surely you guys will

still going strong as a band

even at the age of 50.

Even when 3 of them 

are already married.

Tom and Gi

Harry and Izzy.

Danny and Georgia.

They are still cool.

And Dougie is with Ellie Goulding now

What?

*I'm lame*

Because McFly is not

only a band

with 4 musicians.

But they are best friends.

That's why they will stick together.

For ups and downs.

They accept each other,

They trust each other,

They learn from each other.

Well, that's what friends do.

To infinity and beyond,

McFly.

Because in our hearts,

are where you guys will stay 

forever.

xx

Seri 

and the other

Galaxy Defenders

 

Pure

Maturity is when

You forgive your foes

And accept your friends

For who they are.

You can be both

If you want to.

I am not an angel

I concede to the fact that
I make mistakes.

I am human.

Therefore,

Correct me if I'm wrong.

Confront me if I took the wrong steps.

You don't need to console me.

You don't need to worship me.

It's enough if you just look at me,

as a human.

Because you are too.

Am I

Your next best thing?

I don't wanna be the next best thing
I ain't gonna be your safety net

#np-Next Best Thing

Sam Tsui

xx

Iron lady: Take Two

An iron is still an iron.

But maybe strong

is not the definition.

The best gift

Towards your friends: Loyalty

Towards your enemies: Forgiveness

Towards your leader - A good service

Towards the youngsters - A good example
Towards the elders -Appreciation
Towards your partner - Love and Obedience
Towards human- Freedom

I've said this before 

And I'm gonna say it again.

This is not the matter of religion

This is the matter of humanity.

Find the human in you!

No worries.

Allah will always be with you

Palestine

:'/

What a shame

But, 

what a relief too.

xx

SERIAMALINA

They say that learn from the best,

Learn patience from Asiah.

Learn loyalty from Khadijah.

Learn purity from Maryam.

Learn sincerity from Aishah.

Learn steadfastness from Fatimah.

Alone

Alone in the middle of the night,

I cry.

Without Him,

I am truly alone.

Bless me.

Let humans be humans

It's a harsh world outside.

If you happen to

experience this,

keep strong.

Because knowing that you still live,

determine how strong

you are.

There's nothing wrong

with who you are.

You need to be cold

TO BE A QUEEN

Stop right there

I need to agree that
when you're close to someone.

All your feelings will function
very well.

When you're really close,
you'll pay attention to
their words, their actions.

Even words wound your heart.
Actions give you cuts.

There's nothing wrong with that.

When you really appreciate someone,

you expect them to do the same.

When you really care about someone,

again, you expect them to do the same.

You know what,

the expectations are

the ones who will kill you.

Not your feelings.

You're a human,

you're allowed to have

feelings.

But don't expect too much.

You'll get hurt.

I've been there,

for countless times.

xoxo

If you can understand this poem

You're great.

They say that girls

are from Venus

And the guys 

are from Mars.

But looking at 

the situation,

isn't it the other way round?

xoxo

Iron Lady: A teaser

When there's a presence of force

It bents.

When there's a presence of heat

It melts.

Even when there's a presence of water

It rusts.

Aneroxic?

Let me explain myself a bit.

I am not aneroxic.

And not getting anywhere near to.

I eat when I want to.

I am not trying to diet or anything.

I have a normal weight

(well, one kilo less and I'm underweight)

But I am normal.

Some people might get shocked when

they hold my hands.

Yep, you can feel my bones everywhere.

But I'm good. 

About not eating,

yes I can live for three days without any

proper meal.

But that's not because I'm on diet or anything.

I just don't have the apetite.

And there you go, 

mesti orang kata, 

perasan je perempuan ni.

Takde ah nampak kurus pun.

Bajet lah tu.

Indeed.

But there are also certain group 

of people

questioning my health.

That's why I'm explaining myself.

I don't look that skinny

after all.

Thank you for your

concern.

I'm 42 kilos ^^V

 

You told me that

I am a part of you.

But then why do I feel apart?

Let's talk about fair, shall we?

They asked us to be fair.

Fair is what we gave.

But, they don't think it's fair.

Well, that's not fair.

Fair ain't what

you really need

Ego and pride.

They say that ego and pride

will destroy you.

But I couldn't see any guys

got destroyed.

Or is it only applicable to girls?

9 months

of patience

and improvements.

I believe

there will be a virtue.

xoxo,

SERIAMALINA

Best friends

Well you know.
I hardly consider anyone who is close
to me as a best friend.

I might as well call them bitches,
best bros etc.

Because I know,
when you are really close,
you will expect and trust more.

That was and is my
major concern.

Spongebob: What is I break your trust someday?

Patrick: Trusting you is my decision, proving me wrong is your choice.

Are you ok?
They asked

I always am.

I am just not happy.

But I'm fine.

and

Better in time

You're gonna suffer.

But you're gonna be happy about it.

A short poem.

Because the moment I forgive,

is the moment you give up.

No regrets.

Battlefield.

You know I never wanna hurt you.
Don't even know what
we're fighting for.

Every time I'm wounded.

I get a scar.

To tell me that

I survived.

And also a scar

that tells me.

I am not invincible.

xoxo,

SERIAMALINA

I am not 

being indecisive.

There's a person 

that I need to save.

Or maybe it's me

who needs to be saved.

 

That's how I miss you

The pain 

I feel it in my chest.

It's moving to my hands.

And now they're numb.

It's moving to my feet.

I cannot move.

 

It's choking my throat.
No words can be uttered. 

It's running through my brain.

Nothing I can comprehend.

It's like I'm drowning.

In the ocean where nothing

is to be found.

It's like I'm trying to reach

something beyond

my human limit.

It's like I'm locked 

in a pitch black room,

alone.

And suddenly I feel

tears

running down through my cheeks.

This is 

also a poem.

This is a poem.

As you might wanna call it.

For somebody that I used to know.

You know that

I've always been there for you.

Regardless of how hard 

the situation is.

You know that

I've always offered my words of comfort to you.

Regardless of how lonely

the world is.

You know that

I've always smiled at you.

Regardless of how 

unhappy we were at that moment.

And now that things

have changed.

I cannot be the person
I used to be.

Sorry is the only word 

I can utter.

As I am the trouble

you wish you never had.

As I am the misery

you have in your mind.

As I am the pain

that stops you from being alive.

I understand that we

cannot undo everything.

I know that things

will never go back to normal.

I know that our scars

will never be erased.

So, my only hope is that.

Even if I'm no longer in your mind.

I wish in your heart,

is where I stay.

p/s:Thank you

for stopping

by.

It will eventually gets harder

Once you've stopped trying.

Every single promise I keep.
Cause what kind of person
would I be.
If I was to leave
when you need me most.

What are words if you don't really

mean them when you say them.

What are words if they're only

for good times then they don't.

 

Fragile

I want my old ego back.

I need it back.

I need my shield back.

Stop being

so fragile

Seri.

Hey Cinderella

If the shoe really fits,

Defines it all.

Strangers

I wonder why some people

whom I barely recognise

just love to mess up with me.

When, I don't even know them.

My life is not as perfect 

as it might seems.

But if you still want to envy it.

Please do so.

xoxo

 

Super Seri

Get me out of this mess.

Comeback

dear self

:'(

Keep strong Seri.

Treasure 2.0

Despite all the madness
that I've put you through,
Despite all the madness
that you've put me through.

Despite everything
that I've put you through,
Despite everything
that you've put me through.

You're still a treasure

to me.

It will never change 

for me.

And I hope 

for you too.

That's why I've never given up 

on you.

HB

You will realise that you're a grown up when

Your mom talks about 'jodoh' with you.

       I'm not sure if I should freak out or stay calm or what. But one thing for sure, this is not the usual. Well, for a girl with a vision of a future like me, it's a lie if I say I never thought about it. What kind of guy I wanna marry, when am I planning to get married, how many children I wanna have (ok, this one is way too far. Seriously, I haven't thought about this one) , and the list goes on. It's true indeed, regardless at what age you wanna get married, it is never too early to pray for the best.

        Recently, my mom asked me to start looking right after I start my degree. Cause it's not easy to find good guys nowadays. Maybe it's true, but I strongly believe that, good guys are still in existence. But, in a way for you to have them (have? Is it the most appropriate word to be used? Ok, whatever. At least, you get my point) , you need to be a good girl as well. Cause good guys are only meant for good girls and vice versa.

         So, let's talk about my dream guy. Lol. Kidding. To be honest, I don't really have a list of 'ciri-ciri lelaki idaman' , BUT if I'm given a chance to choose, I really adore tall guys(170-175cm are good enough, 176cm and above are better) lol. No, really. Maybe because I'm short(150cm) and in a way to find the balance, a tall guy is the answer? Only Allah knows. And, I like 'manja' guys. Haha. Kinda funny to think of it, but really yes. I like 'manja' guys. For what reason, I'm not sure. Well, ok. Maybe because I'm not 'manja'. Yep, maybe that's why.

        Ok, enough of that. But I'm lying if I say I don't wanna have a Soleh husband in the future. I do. But, I put my faith fully in His destiny. I shall believe that whoever I'll get is the best one for me. And in a mean time, I'm still gonna strive my fullest not to just be a good person but also a good muslimah. So that, I can find a peace of mind in the partner Allah has granted for me.

        Why do I write such a long rant on this? Haha. (JUST because, it's 2a.m and I feel like writing) . This is just a random post ok? Don't get me wrong or anything. I'm just sharing. And I would like to remind anyone who happens to read this post or my blog generally, don't fall for me if you have yet to know me. And even if you already know me, it's better for you not to. Seriously.

Thank you

for reading my blog.

And keeping up with it.

Let's not just hope

for the best

but to pray for it

Shall we?

Ok,

this is

SERIAMALINA

Because I miss

to be so close to You.

Don't let me

go astray.

Ar-Rum(30:21)

For you to find tranquility 

in them.

Remember?

So, if you don't find any

I strongly believe

you should step back.

And that's what

I'm doing.

Which is it, of the favours of your Lord, that you deny ?

(Ar-Rahman)

There's still a long way to go for me.

But I'm moving

and improving.

With His wills.

Hope you too 

:)

Pray for me

And may peace

will always be upon you.

They say that,
if you miss anyone
make some du'a for them.

That's what I'm doing

and will always do.

To my dearest Amigas,

I might don't have the time

to do the catch up.

But I will always remember 

you girls

in my prayers.

InsyaAllah.

Because,

I miss my sisters

:')

Burn!

There's always a thin line in 

every single thing.

Don't you agree?

Oh dear

Despite everything
that I've gone through,
despite the fierceness,
despite my cold response,

I am still

a typical girl

who loves surprises

and the common things 

lol

So, if anyone is interested

to tell me those words,

please come forward.

Aha, jkjk

Let it go

At the end of the day,

I still need to make 

up my mind.

That's why.

I better stand 

on the ground.

And not to

look up at 

the star(s).

On My Way

Since, 

I have some issues

with how my body works.

I really need to be healthy

before things get worse.

And yep,

let's try to lead 

a healthy life.

Shall we?

Oh hey,

This is my second post 

in 2014.

I'm sorry for not blogging

lately.

But yeah,

I'll try my best

to keep this blog updated.

Well,

that will be my 2014's resolution.

And it has been a pretty hectic way

to start my 2014,

my new semester.

In September,

I'm gonna start working on my degree 

InsyaAllah.

But before that,

I need to nail my foundation first.

So, let's hope for the best

Shall we?

I rest my faith

in His destiny.

Love,

SERIAMALINA