Truth is killing me

Yes2. I'm not going. and i'm trying to be strong. but somehow, i just can't forget this phrase

"Seri, takpe eh, awak kasi peluang pada orang lain?"

boleh. kalau begitulah keadilan diletakkan saya terima dengan hati yang terbuka. namun, saya tetap manusia biasa. Perasaan terkilan selepas 6 yang diharungi, pasti akan wujud. Mustahil kalau tidak menangis. I'm still trying to be strong. Life is hard sometimes like what i've said at the post before. To both of you, i will give my all for you guys to make it. I just need some times. I'm not that strong. Mom and dad came here tadi, and now they have realised that their "kegemilangan yang diharapkan" are not that strong. yes. i can cry out loud and tell the whole world abt it but i can't change the fate,the decision. and i am very please to hear this from my dad.

"You are still our daughter no matter what and we are still proud of you. we will be prouder if you can show us that you're strong"

selepas 6, selepas dua kali di posisi tersebut, akhirnya aku tumpas dengan diri sendiri. Ya Allah, pasti ada hikmah atas segalanya. Berkatilah hidupku. Sekarang aku faham apa maksud cikgu menceritakan tentang anak bongsunya sebanyak dua kali kepadaku.

"Ibu, Allah bagi ujian itu sebab Dia sayang kita kan?"

Malu pada diri sendiri apabila kanak2 berumur 8 tahun mampu menerima segala takdir dengan senyuman.


alhamdulillah~