Selfish

At the end of the day.
We will all choose to be selfish.

Take care of your own self.
Stop hoping for someone to do it for you.
Grow up.

Black

Someday, when it all goes black.

I might want it all back.

But I know I can't go back to you.

How things turned out to be.

I guess that's how things turned out to be.

Once we were so close.
Now you only will contact me asking things which are not even related to me
Once we contact each other everyday.
Now, instead of asking how am I doing, you're asking what are the latest issues that took place in the world.
Once we tell everything to each other.
But now, it seems like we don't even know each other.

They called it life.
And if this is my life right now,
I guess I still can't move on from the past.

When you disappear,
Only then
You will know
Who truly cares
Who does not.

Some just pretended that they care.
Some will try to take an advantage and spread rumors about you.
Some will truly care

But if you really know me.
You shouldn't have thought that I was going to do some stupid things.
I wouldn't do that.
If you know me I'm not like that.

Ok take off your mask, don't pretend like you care.

At the end of the day,
It is true.
You can't expect people
To understand you
To forgive you
To understand you.

If you're broken
Fix it
If you're having a problem
Face it.
Yourself.

I've always posted things as if I'm
Talking to you right.
But let me talk to myself this time

I'm just a loner
A loser
Who appears bold and strong
But weak and fragile inside.
I always cry when I'm going through a hard time.
But I hide it. To appear strong.
But I'm not.
I really am not

I thought when I smile,
The fear, the sadness will go away.
But they won't.

I'm just a little child inside.
Who cannot choose what is best for her own self.

I'm just a human who can't live alone.
Who needs someone to talk to.
Who needs someone I wanna talk to.
Who needs someone who can simply hug me and tell me it's fine. I'm doing the right thing.

What's the point of being successful but alone and unhappy?

I know someone else is having it worse.
But that's how weak I am for not being able to go through this small hardship.

I'm sorry if I dissapoint anyone with my childish rant, with my immature thoughts.

But yes, I'm still a child.
I'm still too young for all this bullshit.

At this rate, I think I might really going to run away. :/

That one time

That you just wanna 

distant yourself 

from everyone.

From the world.

As their loud voices

will never stop spreading rumors.

Spreading the untrue.

You wanna feel your heart talking

You wanna follow your instinct.

You just wanna give your mind some peace.

That one fine time. 

There's a devil inside of you.

There's a devil inside of me too.

And just because it lives inside of me.

That doesn't mean I am

a devil. 

That's the same thing

That you should hold on too

I won't ask you to stay strong. But I will ask you to hang in there.

Have you ever felt scared?

Scared of yourself

Your unexpected temper

Your selfish self

Scared of your past

The thought that it might

Haunt you again and again

Scared of your future

As you don't know

What to do about it

"What should you do about it?"

The question that you keep asking yourself

When the actual question that you need to answer is,

"What can you do about it?"

You wanna run away right?

Far away.

Cause no matter how hard you've tried.

You know there's a loser in you.

But a loser does not give up.

That's why you're a loser.

The one who simply did not win.

If you have given up,

You're not a loser.

But a dead person.

Hang in there,

SERIAMALINA