Sunday 12 June 2011

Believe it or not?

When i was thirteen or should i say a form 1 student. I always told myself.


"it's ok, just be strong for now. when you are a senior, you're not going to hate going back to school anymore. just, be tough for this year. you don't want to regret yourself."


Form 2,I told myself


"it's been a year, another four years to go. time will fly so fast. no worries"


Fifteen,


"with all this pmr thingy, i have to be strong to never give up. you have to learn, so you have to go back to school. just, another year, you will feel nothing about this"


BUT THE REALITY IS THAT WHEN YOU ARE SIXTEEN,


"I STILL DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL, THERE ARE TONS OF WORK TO GET DONE. PLEASE SOMEONE, MAKE ME INVISIBLE"



in conlusion, somehow as you grw older. what will change is that, you're going to get more emotional and you're going to have hormones crisis. that is why.


so, don't blame for being homesick.

Saturday 11 June 2011

Apa dia?

He puts smile on my face.
He puts back the light in my eyes.
He is always there to listen.
He choose to be himself.


and somehow,

HE slowly heals my wound.
and that is why.


but, as i've told you before. maybe not.

Mohon petunjuk.

post ini khas ditujukan buat mereka yang bergelar wanita atau perempuan islam.

tidak faham dengan masyarakat sekarang yang semakin lupa dengan rasa malu.(rasa macam penceramah agama sekejap, heh).








BUKANKAH MALU ITU SEBAHAGIAN DARIPADA IMAN?








tapi yang ini lain cerita, kalau ya pun tak malu dek orang ramai nak menayang-nayang tu, tapi malu la diri sendiri. tubuh tu kita pinjam sahaja kot, tak payah la susah-susah nak bagi tambah nafsu untuk lelaki-lelaki bukan mahram dekat luar sana.



contoh paling mudah, pakai seluar tak cukup kain. hah, habis terdedahlah paha yang kononnya putih mulus gebu tu. kalau yang lawa pahanya boleh lah tahan lagi, ini tidak aci redah ja pakaian. yang gambar dekat atas ni posh beckham, suka hati dialah nak pakai begitu, bukan agama islam pun. yang beragama islam ni, kenapa lah susah sesangatnya nak pakai seluar sampai ke bawah? terhingin sangat ke nak bergaya macam artis hollywood tu? apa dia? tak nak jadi out-dated? haktuih lah tu, baik jadi outdated sikit daripada out of list from orang yang masuk syurga.

next, yang ala-ala seksi pakai baju nampak pusat. alahai, tak cukup sangat ke kain dekat malaysia ni, itu belum lagi dengan dada yang terdedah-dedah tu. kasi lah istimewa sikit bakal suami yang rasmi dulu, ni aci kasi free show dekat semua orang. bila benda yang tak elok dah jadi, nak overdose marah dekat laki tu. reflect balik lah. dia bukan malaikat, dia manusia yang ada nafsu dan yang hang dok pi pakai mcmtu pasai apa kn? sendiri yang cari nahas.

rambut? yang ni lagi satu. mungkin antara sebab yang major adalah bila mereka-mereka(kalau dkt hk dbt pki bhs ni, mmg hbsla mrkh bhs aku) yang tak hingin pakai tudung walaupun banyak sangat fesyen tudung yang bergaya sekarang adalah apabila mereka suka wujudkan situasi-situasi sebegini.

1. "alah, baru 16 tahun, lama lagi hidup. nanti dah besar sikit nanti, pakailah. Tuhan kan sentiasa buka pintu taubat"
-amboi pandai cakap pasal Tuhan and sesuka dia je nak ingat dia hidup lama. Wallahualam.

2."alah, anak mak ngah, mak cu, mak long, mak uda semua belum pakai lagi. jiran sebelah ni dah tua kerepot pun tak pakai lagi. tu hah, kawan saya ramai tak pakai lagi. kenapa saya kena pakai pulak?"
-dey! nak tuntut satu dunia pakai baru awak nak pakai ke? kalau dia masuk neraka, hah, awak pergilah join sekali.

3."alah, saya tak nak jadi hipokrit. mana boleh dipaksa-paksa dalam nak memakai tudung ni. bukan ke dalam islam sendiri tiada paksaan. Macamane kalau saya pakai tudung tapi saya buat benda yang tak senonoh kan ke nama islam jugak yang rosak?"
-amboi, pakai ugut dan berdiri atas nama islam pulak tu. hah, yela kau. tak hipokrit sangatlah tu.

dan banyak lagi alasan-alasan nya.

apa yang saya cuba sampaikan adalah, kita ni orang melayu berdiri atas nama islam lagi. mungkin ada yang nak kata saya berfikiran kolot kan? tak ikut peredaran fesyen. alahai, saya pun suka tgk majalah fesyen. saya pun layan starworld, tgk ja antm dan banyak sangat dengar lagu berbahasa inggeris. tapi, saya takdalah pulak terhingin nak pakai macam mereka. apa yang hebat sangat tu? cuba bagi sikit alasan konkrit. lawa apa pakai baju tutup semua, tak payah pun pakai baju kurung setiap masa, saya pun rimas, tapi ok apa sarung tudung dan pakai baju tutup semua. boleh ja kekal lawa. ya lah, kalau orang dah lawa tu, lawa jugak en? heh.

tambahan pula, sekarang ni banyak tudung yang mudah dipakai. tak macam dulu, nak pakai tudung kena iron betul2 takut nampak huduh. sekarang ni, sarung ja dh ready to go. lilit sikit ja, dh boleh bergaya dah. tak susah sangat pun kan? dan kalau rambut tu lawa sgt tapela jugak, ini tidak stock yang dah macam kena bakar pun ada hati nak tayang habis.

bukan lah apa, kalau pasal rambut ini, saya boleh terima lah lagi tak nak pakai tudung. tak dapat hidayah lagi kot. tapi kalau bab paha dengan pusat tu, jagalah elok2 ya.

saya juga ingin mengingatkan diri sendiri di sini. saya pun, takdela stock yang pakai tudung labuh, baju labuh semua. takdela stock yangg ckp pun suara mcm tk nk keluar. takdela stock yang hadap al-quran setiap masa. tapi, tak salah kan kita ingat-mengingatkan. sebab seperti mana norma seorang manusia itu mudah sangat untuk lupa.

p/s: kenapa bahasa melayu? sebab bahasa melayu ini bersifat menusuk sikit untuk menyampaikan mesej-mesej sebegini.

semoga kita sama-sama dirahmatiNya. amin~


Wednesday 8 June 2011

Awesomeness

and yeah, my pov on some awesome television show this mid-year holidays.








Glee-season 2. It is superbly fun and funny to watch. and what a loss, Finn is no longer with rachel. and he's back with Quinn. And as a matter of fact, Quinn and Sam were so perfect together. New guy, Blaine he's quite hot but he's a GAY and he is also Kurt's boyfriend. Brittany continues to be the slowest person and she's sometimes with Santana and sometimes with Artie. And Puck hooks up on Laure, like seriously? just too much dramas and awesomeness.








HOW I MEET YOUR MOTHER-season 6. Barney, Ted, Marshall, Liliy and Robin. This show is superbly hilarious. Endless comedy throughout the series. and finally, Barney get to meet his dad and it was such a touching episode though.






THE SUITE LIFE ON DECK- they keep repeating the same episodes but i still keep laughing. Come on, London and Zack are hilarious people on planet. While Cody continues to be the innocent dude. While Bailey is just a good character.




SONNY WITH A CHANCE-season 2. Eventhough, i've memorised the whole script yet, i still love to watch it everynight. Chad and Sonny made the cutest couple ever. Love every episode. But, sadly for the thrd season, there's no more Sonny. All that's left is SO RANDOM. aww, sad.















Tuesday 7 June 2011

Boyfriend?

yeah, people asks,


WHY ARE YOU STILL SINGLE?


so, here comes the answers.


1. it's not that i've been dumped before, but i can't afford to be hurt.

2. it's not that there's no one into me(bhahah), but i love my freedom better.

3. it's not that i don't have anyone to be the special one, but i can't afford to hurt.


of course, i've met people and have crush fr a little while and it will stop. the end.

can you imagine if you have a special someone,


1. you will lost your freedom and somehow it just feels like your parents are following you on twitter or be your friend on fb. derr.

2.you will lost the thrillness in the relationship, you will no longer waiting fr him to say those three words or say you look pretty or even say sweet dreams, bcs he will always say those things.

3. you will be paranoid as you can't stop yourself from feeling insecure. eg, maybe he's not that into you anymore, that girl is hotter than you, and blablabla.


right? so, why do we have to have a special boyfriend while you can just enjoy your life having boyfriends? i , seriously have nothing against all this relationship stuff. but, this is just my pov.


of course , sometimes i do want to have a special someone, i am already sixteen, duh. but, maybe not. btw, i am one the kind yang sgtsgt choosy on ths kind of issue, so no is th answer.


if and only if i have this awkward creepy little feeling towards someone pun, i better keep it as my deepest secret.


that's all folks!